It has all completely blown me away. The messages of condolences, the memories of Matt/Murakami, the offers of help and support you have all given me. You have no idea how much comfort and support this has been for me! I don’t have the words to express the depth of my gratitude to each and every one of you. Then you throw in the GoFundMe page and I am truly speechless!!! This truly is a family indeed! And to do all that for the unknown widow of someone genuinely is incredible! It finally hit me this afternoon that he’s actually dead. I think I was such on “nurse mode” rather than “grieving widow mode”. Hit me like a sledgehammer and completely broke down. My best friend dropped everything and came round and between my tears and snot wee David was hugging me and doing the funny wee dances he always did for his daddy when he was poorly or sad to cheer him up and make us smile and laugh. Exactly as Matt did. He’s his daddy’s boy alright! He tucked a few cuddly toys in bed beside me, covered me up and kissed me telling me he loved me and now it’s his job to look out for me. Honestly his strength so far is remarkable. I know I’m babbling (typical bloody woman eh) and I don’t even know if I’m making any sense, but THANKYOU, EACH AND EVERY ONE OF YOU!!! Love and gratitude to you all xxx